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Thursday, May 31, 2007
Invigorated; | 7:52 AM

Went to Escape with Ruijie, Ben Low, Zeb and Pok.



Had a quite a good time. Pooped out due to the freaking long MRT train rides though. Hope Zeb has reached home already. Stupid Ruijie with his house which is 1 stop away from Pasir Ris.



Gym tomorrow. Sigh.



Quote of the Day:"I am the King!" -Pok



it's okay to smile

just for yourself-



Wednesday, May 30, 2007
RIPC Camp | 8:29 AM

was rather good. Kudos to the Sec 3 Committee and to-be-Excos.

On the first day, we reported to the Junior Block Atrium at 7.30am. After moving to the raja block to set up our equipment, we were then briefed on how the camp was to be like. After the neccessary (and not to mention boring) administrative stuff, we set off for Katong.

After stoning in the 13 bus for like 45 minutes, we finally arrived.

Katong was quite an interesting place as there was a clear contrast of new and old, which fit our camp's theme: Culture, Trends and Changes. Kenneth actually spammed all his photos in black and white for the entire day.

I'm still too lazy to upload and edit the photos though. Marine Parade Central was next.

One of the new sec ones, Andre, actually asked:

"Is Marine Parade a parade, or a place?" FTW! (for the win)

There, the photos weren't as good as Katong for me. Maybe it was due to the fact I was too tired and thus too lazy to be running around and crouching @ weird angles. There were some nice architecture photos though.

Before I bore you all to death, may I add that we next travelled to Orchard to play LAN at one of the buildings there :) We played CS (Counter-strike) for the entire 2 hours there and needless to say, had a great time shooting people's heads off and kniving unexpecting newbies running around.

I knived 2, btw :D

After dinner, we went around Orchard to shoot some night photography. I had a great time playing with the light effects. I'll show you all a picture of the play of light next time. It's seriously pretty when there are pink, red and yellow and white lights all jumbled together. Andre had to stop at every 7-11 to "refuel" and "recharge" by buying high-sugar content drinks such as Pepsi, Coke, etc. No wonder he's fatpleasantly proportioned.

OH YES. I met this looney.

WARNING. If you meet this chinese woman aged about 40 odd who is about 158 and is anti-phones, she might be the one that i'm mentioning here. If you do, do not approach @ all costs. keep your handphones safe.

While I was happily typing an sms on my handphone with one hand, I spied the woman mentioned above striding towards me with this glare fit enough to match a cobra. When she was like 2 metres away from me, she suddenly lunged forward slightly and shouted (or rather, spat)

"Shut that f***ing phone off, you f***ing asshole!"

In this decibal that was audible like in a 7 metre radius in Orchard Road. What was more, let's pray she doesn't have any disease (apart from certain IMH-related brain damage) that is contagious through her acidic spit. Eww. I actually felt like a few droplets splashing all over my arm that was typing. I looked at her with that lazy and blur look that was, quite calm, and put down my phone.

She stalked off after that. I continued typing.

EPISODE II: THE NUT HEAD STRIKES BACK!

After about 2 minutes, she apparently decided to return to the scene of the crime. However, when she was like 15m behind us, I turned around and put my phone away. She wasn't aiming me though.

"SHUT OFF ALL YOUR F***ING PHONES! CAN'T YOU SEE THEY'RE CONTROLLING YOU? WHY DON'T YOU ALL JUST MOVE, YOU F***ING ASSHOLES?"

*note
The author apologises for the crudeness of language.

Then, she stalked off again. Everyone was stunned for like 2 seconds before walking (and using their handphones)

EPISODE III: THE "SECRET PLAN"

After returning to the scene for the third time, she screamed this time.

"STOP CONTROLLING HER, YOU F****ING PHONE. STOP LETTING HIM CONTROL YOU, YOU F****ING ASSHOLES!"

After that, she disappeared promptly and supposedly went into a shopping centre, never to be seen again.

Probably to buy the newest Nokia phones, I bet.

Brought to you by a 1st-hand account of a victim and survivor.

Day 2 tomorrow

--

I'm going off to Escape Theme Park with Ruijie (who provided the free ticks!), Zeb, Pok and Ben Low tomorrow! Wooot.

Btw, check out pok's wordpress for nice (and some unintentional racist) jokes. Mr Dennis Au is dam pro btw. Check this out:http://www.ephilosopher.com/phpBB_14-action-viewtopic-topic-6732-start-0.html for reasons why.

Quote of the Day:"As fast as a faster. As long as a longan. As real as a hosereel."-LKC

who i am-



Monday, May 28, 2007
Long-Awaited! | 5:47 AM

Malaysia Montage Post! :D

Hello Kiddies! This is the long awaited post about MM where the author decided to sit down and have a huge long post waiting to be typed onto the computer after procastinating severely. So, you shall be eternally grateful to him! Erm, right?

Day 1

We had to report to school by 7am that day, and we went to the S Raja Block foyer to assemble. There, we received many well-wishes especially from the seniors and decided to sit down in our groups. Before long, we found our buddies and boarded the buses. Sayonara, RI! AND GOOD RIDDANCE.

Funny thing was, even though I was the photographer for the event, I found myself being the Environmentalist for this part and thus picking up the rubbish C1 left behind =.=. I got credited for it though! -smiles a typical teacher's pet's smile-

And thus begin the long, treacherous journey of few hundred km over to Malaysia.

After stopping @ numerous stops on the way, we finally made it to the Sungei Menyala Forest Reserve where we walked for about 40 minutes where we reached this clearing. We then attended this performance by the locals, and a briefing about the reforestation project. the performance by the locals were pretty interesting, and we even had a chance to use the blowpipes. Of course, we were the food for the mosquitoes there as well.

Let's hope none of them carry dengue or malaria.

After walking back all the way, we finally boarded the bus and headed off to Tiara Beach Resort. Finally!

After eating dinner, we had this briefing by a FRIM official where he explained to us how conservation was important and the flora and fauna. Before I bore you all to death, he did it in a comical way where he acted as orang utans, made examples of trees using people's hairs and sabo-ed people with weird hairstyles.

Hooray for innocent photographers :D

Quote of the Day:"Don't inhale the dart!"-instructor talking to some RI people playing with the blowdart.

Day 2

Woke up bright and early for PT. Brought down my camera for some shots. Which, in turn saved me from PT as I was walking around while the sec 2 cohort were doing PT. Thus, while they were running around, we were walking around and taking pictures of them leisurely. heehee.

As we were batch 2, we went to the Lighthouse track and the Kampong Pelegong homestay.

The lighthouse track was absolute MURDER. I think i sweat like 1 litre over there while vaulting over rocks, trekking past beaches, screaming our heads out through knee-thigh height grass for fear of creepy crawlies and centipedes and swatting away blood-thirsty mosquitoes.

What was more, there were some parts of the slope that was so steep and unbalanced that we had to use ropes to balance ourselves. At one point, I almost fell off if not for me catching the rope and hanging on. Scary stuff, I tell you.

The most demoralizing part of this was like after 30 minutes of tracking, the guide said, "Only half-way more to go! 6 KM MORE!"

We almost killed him.

And there was one point where the guided purposely wanted us to cross this huge tree trunk that had fallen by going over it. Although there was a perfectly safe detour under it, he wanted us to "build our teamwork" or whatever. When he screamed at us about lack of responsibility (as someone lost sth) I really felt like throwing this rock at him. We spent about an hour getting up.

However, making it to the top was really a uplifiting thing for all of us. The lighthouse was pretty and tall. And, another cool thing was that the waters below had several small whirlpools. Pretty! We then built this nice flag and sang our batch song. haha quite diao.

We then walked down for about 200 metres, and saw this path turning right. Then, memory got me as I remembered that we turned left while on the main "road" to turn into the track. The paths were the same. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

For those that don't comprehend, we could've saved our effort if we had tracked up all the way instead of detouring and going left to the track in our bid to reach the lighthouse.

WHAT THE HELL.

After serving lunch at the hotel, we went to the Kampong Keleggong. There, we walked for about 20 minutes (again!) to the homestay. There, we played some kampong games and ate sugar cane! Eating Sugar cane was very interesting, as we had to bite off the bark before chomping on the nice inner flesh. However, I grew pissed with mine and through it away. Go back to Nature!

Too bad a senior pushed me away before I had the chance to buy an ice-cream :(

We also had this WATER FIGHT WITH THE TEACHERS. WAHAHA. Our war cry, believe it or not, was the Canadian Pizza Delivery Number. 6-2-3-5-3-5-3-5, PIZZA DELIVERY! ATTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK.

Note to self: Teachers show no mercy. I didn't have the heart to throw my water bomb at Ms grace, but that didn't stop her from throwing hers at me =.=

Oh well, great fun and laughter.

Next was this car competition, where this toycar was attached to a balloon and needle and the car had to burst the other car's balloon with its needle. Mr Eric Koh was the PRO at this game. Using a neat combo of reversals, fake baits and attacks, he managed to fend off 2 at once. However, he got ganged 3 v 1 and burst. :( Well, no surprise, he has a Subaru WRX!

After that, we went to some houses to visit the people over there. As Mr Joseph Chong was a Malay Chinese, we was able to converse fluently. The house we visisted consisted of an old couple taking care of a small boy who was KAWAII-DAS. Big big eyes and innocent look = CUTE baby. Dam cute i tell you.

Mush's marriage (ALLITERATION!) was next. As he got sabo-ed by his group members, he had to undergo this wedding ceromony with this local women. We also had this cultural show by the locals over there. Thus, he was all dressed up and I thought he looked rather dignified. The malay girls were dancing while the boys were playing the instruments skilfully. All in all, it was pretty interesting.

We then walked back in semi-pitch darkness. There was this scary part in which banana trees started popping out of nowwhere and we had to walk past this cemetery on both sides. everyone was shouting "COMPACT COMPACT!".

Hey! It's scary okay?!

Quote of the Day:"We must do things as a cohort!"-kenneth, talking about PT to the sec 2 cohort. HAHA.

Day 3

Morning PT again. This time, I slacked abit more since I had already taken some photos on Day 2. Hee.

We went to the FRIM (Forest Reforestation Institute of Malaysia) today. It was basically like the lighthouse track, except that there was this canopy walk (UBERCOOL) and shorter. And also, the presence of...

LEECHES. These idiotic guys cling onto your shoes and sink those razor sharp teeth into your vulnerable skin and start feeding on your precious blood. It starts increasing in size (talk about cholestrol) and guzzles down until it is ripe and full and drops off.

EWW.

Sorry, I just have this unnatural fear of Leeches ever since I watched this documentary about blood-sucking organisms, including Vampire Bats.

Ask Daniel. I was asking people frantically about whether certain insect repellants repelled leeches but they only said that it irritated leeches to the point that it will drop off if it is clinging on but it doesnt repel. AAAAAAH. i was seriously paranoid.

As I like to say, prevention is better than cure.

I was spraying insect repellant onto my legs every 10 steps i took and with the muddy and damp paths (more leeches) i basically ran past them and spammed my insect repellant. I reckon i used about 1/2 of it.

Some crazy people saw that they got bitten, and just let the leech bite them instead of using insect repellant. Crazy sacrifice victims!

Good thing was that I didn't get any bites. Hooray!

After ensuring that the leeches didn't find a home in my pants or in my clothes or my body, we boarded the bus to go to Kuala Lumpur. On the way, we stopped by the Batu Caves which is the home to most Islam (or was it Muslim?) prayers as they believe the god rests in the cave or sth. Anyway, we had to walk a friggin 276 steep steps to get up there.

Still, the bat droppings and the ambience was pretty fascinating.

Off to KL Communications Tower for High Tea Next!
As we were attending this "private function", we were allowed to go to the 4th deck of the tower - The MegaView Deck. so-so, but I missed this pretty rainbow =/

CHOCOLATE HOUSE WAS NEXT IN LINE.
O man, I bought about 80 RM worth of chocolate here. Sorry, sweet tooth. Too bad I have a small sore throat. oh well, they're STILL ALL MINE. MUAHAHA.

Chinatown street night market was up next. (i use next alot, sorry) I bought this Quicksilver shirt for 20RM after 2 bargains and reduced about 15-20 RM. Think I could've gotten abit lower though.

Steamboat dinner to complete the day, and a long, long bus ride back. zzz.

Quote of the Day: -Refer to the post before the last post- the one that Mush said to Benn.

Day 4

After departing from the hotel, we came to Putrajaya, the administrative capital of Malaysia. It was quite interesting to look at especially at the architecture. Best of all, a shop sold ice cream for 1 RM only!

Lunch @ CyberJaya was murder. Super long queues extending about 50 metres plus by our cohort due to lack of food supplies =.= Ate one of the last and was super hungry but little food was given. T_T

Nice Satays though. And Mr Joseph Chong gave me one extra too! woot.

From then on, it was another perilious, treacherous trip back to Singapore, with Stephen begging me for my phone and us watching Mr Bones, a comedy movie.

--

AND THUS ENDS THE BANE OF MM. it was pretty fun on the whole, though. Could've done much better without the leeches. Eww.

Quote of the Day:"Banana! You want?!"-Pok

Something's about to break
should've started running
a long, long time ago,
Maybe this gift is a curse for me-

When you said I didn't understand;
You know how much pain and hurt I felt?



Saturday, May 26, 2007
NUS Montage Pwnage. | 7:49 AM

Ms Jennifer Koh called the NUS Montage people today regarding the photography competition (Youth). As the pictures had to be taken from 25th May 6pm to 26 May 6pm, she was enquiring about how the people would check the dates of the photos.

"Um, hello? May I enquire about how the dates of the photos will be checked in the Youth Category?"

"Well, we're going to use the Exif Data of the photo taken."

"Oh, but the Exif Data can be changed right?"

-Pause-

"Erm, that's something unavoidable in this competition."

--

Ownage Nia.

Quote of the Day:"Potatoe on sticks!" -Xiaoting, describing Samuel.








Friday, May 25, 2007
M'sia Montage! | 6:34 AM

SUMMARY: Met 2 fags, and made a few more good friends. Apologies for the corruptedness in me.

My Group was C1, Labuan. Woot!
First, let's give a summary of my group members. Due to time constraints, reiteration of the events will be continued in the next post!

Stephen: Super horny, and supposedly wet his bed once. With either his own bodily fluids or pee, i'm not interested to know. Seems to be overly obsessed with the games on my phone and my iPod. Unluckily or luckily, my buddy.

Would Say: "uhh, uhh(gay noises)"
Wouldn't Say: "aiya michael i don't want to play your phone already."

Fag Factor: 4/10

Soon Tiac: RI Gym ponner. Although he isn't as bad in terms of horniness compared to my roommates, he has this hyena laughter that can be either hilarious or plain freaky. Has been slowly corrupted by Stephen and Benn Chua -> Fag.

Would Say: "F*** YEAH"
Wouldn't Say: "I'm going to go for gym!"

Fag Factor: 5/10

Benn Chua [FAG]: Super horny, and "masturbated" under his bed sheet while we were in the room. His phone's theme has soft porn (people with revealing clothes), which is why he has a pin-code set to probably hide his porn videos. He is extremely protective of his bed, aka his sacred wanking place. Is seriously mentally deluded that he has a girlfriend of some sort (or rather, his own body) and thinks that she/he would sms him the entire day while he's wanking away. He supposedly wanked in the room while we were present under the bed sheet and made gay noises. Apparently has something against me for sitting on his bed accidentally 3 times. CMI poser. Thinks he's some bigshot.

Repeat after me to memorise and understand the simplest equation in the entire world:

Benn Chua = Horny Fag/Noob.
BC= HF/N

Tada!

Would Say:"These clothes act seh anot? -pose-"
Wouldn't Say:"Sit on my bed!"

Fag Factor: 10000/10

Moses: A Geper from Nanyang. Very nice and enthusiastic and encouraging Loves to purposely pose for my photos, and has ruined one so far. Oh well. A Prefect from RI too!

Would Say: "Michael! Got bring your camera? :)"
Wouldn't Say: "AAH DON'T SHOOT ME."

Fag Factor: 2/10

Dewin: A Geper from Nanyang too. Loves irritating Stephen, and was our group leader for C1, since CEC and Prefects couldn't be leaders. Possesses certain leadership qualities.

Would Say: "I trust short people!"
Wouldn't: -stop irritating stephen-

Fag Factor: 3/10

Kok Peng: A short guy even shorter then me! I have a fatal attraction to patting his head. Is quite quiet. Slow to anger.

Would: -smile-
Wouldn't: -become angry-

Fag Factor: 2/10

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Quote of the Day:"It doesn't mean that if you were erected throughout the ceromony yesterday that everyone is erected."-Mush to Benn Chua, in that superior tone.

Kudos to Mush! Benn's expression was priceless.



Monday, May 21, 2007
Packed and Ready to Go! | 5:39 AM

Woo. Malaysia Montage in approximately 8 hours.

Finally packed the uber long-list in a few hours, which included TNTs, Bubble Gum, Heroin, Ice, etc, the usual stuff to smuggle across the border to Malaysia. -whistles-

I'll be away from the 22nd to 25th of May, so until then, no blog posts, and don't miss me too much, okay? :)

Gym was kinda screwed today. Let me reiterate the supposed training schedule for the holidays.

Monday: 9am to 12am. 1pm to 4.30pm
Tuesday: 9am to 1pm
Wednesday: 9am to 12am. 1pm to 4.30pm
Thursday: 9am to 1pm
Friday: 9am to 12am. 1pm to 4.30pm
Saturday: 9 am to 1 pm
Sunday: NO TRAINING.

This effectively translates into 6 and a half hours of training every monday, wednesday and Friday, and 4 hours for the others. Milton pointed out that in our 31 days of Holiday, we'll have 37 trainings.

Thus, this calamity resulted in broken souls and a massive demoralization of the entire team. I was busy shouting "HUMAN RIGHTS." the whole day while Pok was telling me that I should apply for animal rights. I told him to apply for cooked food rights, or Muslim Rights instead. That shut him up :)

Ying Jie was also singing this supposedly motivating song. It went like this:

"I suck at gym, I suck at floor, I suck...."

Wow. His song must be so self-reassuring to himself and to the others around him.

-INSENSITIVE SECTION, BEWARE.-

We also got back our Science CCT Results and our Mobile Report.

For Science CCT, I got 17/20! Which is surprising, because I thought I would get about 15. Still, no complaints :) This translates into a 85/100 for my GPA, which definitely pulls it up. LinSen got 19 marks, which was the highest in class. Mr Otto Fong actually drew this American flag which stated "19" in huge, striking red.

For Mobile Report, Me and Pat got 20/25. Adib/Fauzan got full marks, no surprise there. 80/100!

END.

However, due to the "divine" intervention discussion among the Teacher-in-charge and the coaches, training schedules were changed.

Monday to Friday: 8.30 to 1.30pm.

THAT's 5 FREAKING HOURS.

Sorry Ruijie, my Luggage won't fit you, so you can't come along. HOORAY. :D jkjk.

Sorry for short post, due to time constraints.

--

over the next few days
lost without your smile;
would you notice something missing in your life?
would you even care.

If i fell,
where would I go,
would you even know-

One thing's for sure
I'll be missing you.




Sunday, May 20, 2007
Back Here; | 7:45 AM

"Today we're adding autosaving of draft posts to the Blogger post editor. Now you don't have to feel so bad about browser crashes, random laptop restarts, or that hamster vs. gerbil war going on behind your desk that keeps knocking your power cord out of the socket, because Blogger is automatically saving as you type! It's doing it to me right now. Even if I...

*smash*

Whoops! I just pretended that my browser crashed for the purpose of illustrating that the above paragraph is still intact, thanks to autosave! So say "goodbye" to lost blog posts."


-Blogger

man, this would be so funny if my post got deleted.

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English File due tomorrow. I think I lost my content page. Woops >_> Bet Ms Chia's going to hunt me down.

Also, Malaysia Montage in 2 Days! And I haven't packed a single thing. Strangely, I don't feel like going on this trip. Could be because I went to the Tiara Beach Resort before, and I didn't really like it. Oh well.

Spiderman 2 just played just now, from 7.30 to 9.30 i think. Recorded it down. Woohoo!Downloaded more songs today! through certain unscrupulous means which will not be mentioned here due to the fear of certain copyright infringement.

Argh. Blogger's block.

Due to the influx of the nexus of the universe, the centre of gravity of the chemical tritium is chemically unstable. However, added with the electron of Hydrogen, this will form a stable electronic structure, but will result in radiation pouring out.

ahem. that was random.

Oh yeah. If you haven't noticed, Chelsea beat Man U 1-0 in extra time. I'll bet Jarrel's harping on about it right now. I'm a neutral supporter!

Learnt about the book of Mormons today in Church. It was pretty interesting learning about "cults", as defined as deviation from the Christian Faith in one way or the another. Lest a Mormon come sue me, I shall stay quiet. Jehovah's Witnesses is next week!

Can't wait for 9th June.

--

Quote of the Day:"Love is the epitome of masochism."-Abel

'till you're back here-



Saturday, May 19, 2007
RI Open House | 7:47 AM

Today was RI Open House, asforementioned in the title.

Arrived at school bright and early at about 8pm and started loading expensive camera stuff from the pretty design centre to the Albert Hong Hall, which was air-conditioned (WOOT). As the infocomm club had very nicely koped our table, we decided to make another one and nudged a table between the Infocomm club and the Chinese Cultural Club.

Our RIPC booth had a few sections. One of those was the slideshow of which we used a laptop to display certain photos of the schools. Some of my photos were included too! :D Pretty interesting.

Another section was the game section. We used another laptop to display some photos of the school and the parents/primary 6 children had to guess the exact location of where the photo was taken. haha it isn't as easy as it sounds as Pinhong had twisted the angles of the photos so it was virtually unrecognizable if you didn't know RI well. Of course, we gave plenty of clues.

We displayed some cameras like the minolta ancient film camera which is unique in a sense, and another camera with a 500mm lense.

FYI: The longer the lense, the more powerful the zoom is.

400Ds were popular as well. We also put the H1, etc. Good thing i wasn't there to pack up :P

Shift ended at 11am.

On to Gym next!

For our gym booth, we had set up this small runway and a spring board. Everynow and then, we would perform and do some somersaults or do circles on the mushroom. Although this attracted lots of attention, not many parents came up to learn about gym. I think this was because the parents usually associate gym with injuries, etc, which is true, but in a limited perspective.

Oh well.

Somehow, I ended up learning how to do the first layer of the rubik's cube, which ended up in lots of hair loss of both pok and ruijie. I'm still not that good at it though.

My blister reopened today. Damn.

--

Quote of the Day:"You no mother ah."Ruijie/Quayyum.

'cause its you
and i will
fight on for you-

though deep inside my heart is breakin'



Friday, May 18, 2007
Injury Magnet X 2 | 8:30 AM

Received another 3 injuries today.

another blister while doing giants after being forced to do so. It's producing water now.


Kicked my toe against a metal bar. Owch.


Very badly sore ankle after doing my first "D" move! worth it man :D


so now, I can't possibly type super long posts. Sorry =/

Tomorrow's open house for RI! if there are any p6 random guys reading this blog, please come down to visit RI, especially the GYM and RIPC booth.


I may be able to buy a crumpler! No i'm not rich. Due to kenneth wee very nicely proposing this CIP job where you get PAID for walking around a designated area for donations.


I chose the night shift: 6.30pm - 9.30pm
Pay: 20 bucks for 3 hours.


Pretty good :D in fact, me and patrick almost asked the KFC cashiers how much they earned in order to compare.


So, i may be doing this from 3rd june to 9th june all the way.


Do the math: 7 days X 20 bucks = 140 dollars!


woot. i'm feeling rich already. Of course, no counting your chickens before they're hatched.


help me compare between these two! see which one nicer.


The black one: http://www.crumpler.com.sg/Cart/Views/productpagev2/popupImage.php?img=http%3A//www.crumpler.com.sg/Cart/Resources/CartResources/181_res/b181_o10518.jpg&caption=product%20id%20%3A%20BR11A


or


The grey one: http://www.crumpler.com.sg/Cart/Resources/CartResources/181_res/b181_o10516.jpg


But hey, it's no harm planning right? ^^


yay for "D" moves, baby. Msia Montage in 4 days. Hope my blister and ankle heals by then. T_T. Still have to wake up at 7 am + tomorrow for open house.



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Quote of the Day:"Oh, hello darling. You know that there's a Prada and Gucci sale at Paragorn?"-Kwun Tong to a random basketballer with that gay accent, who instantly replied with a ancient gothic language otherwise known as swearing.

you can take it all away,

and nothing seems to be the same.

because' these insignificant things you do;

mean the world to me.




Thursday, May 17, 2007
POETRY ANTHOLOGY | 7:57 AM

FINISHED!

hooray for new skin btw.

crappy math.

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Quote of the Day:"I don't listen to noobs. So SHUT UP."

fatigue



Tuesday, May 15, 2007
| 5:22 AM

"Gifts And Curses"

Mary belongs to the words of a song.
I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.
But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.
Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.

(She is the one), but I have a purpose,
(she is the one), and I have to fight this,
(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
still I will always fight on for you.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,
the city lights shine for her, above them I cry for her.
Everything's small on the ground below, down below.
What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?

(She is the one), all that I wanted,
(she is the one), and I will be haunted,
(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, it's all for you.
And my worst pains are words I cannot say,
Still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you ...

I see your face with every punch I take,
and every bone I break, its all for you
and my worst pains are words I cannot say
still I will always fight on for you. Fight on for you. Fight on for you...


By Yellowcard

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posted for the convenience of some people.

SORRY FOR LACK OF POSTS DUE TO ENGLISH ASSIGNMENT.

Quote of the Day:"Of course I'm in Love with you, darlING."-Lionel



Saturday, May 12, 2007
all screwed up; | 2:51 AM

sometimes, i don't know why i'm going for gym anymore.

I go there, get scolded for everything i do (except for vault). It also isn't really helping that i just received another blister today, which stacks on to my other leg. Thus,this results in more scoldings and more naggings by coach.

Yeah, my fault for getting myself injured.

Eff it.

--

My world's on fire,
how about yours?



Friday, May 11, 2007
Swim Carnival and House Carnival! | 7:54 AM

MORRISON'S CURRENTLY FIRST!!

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Dreams are supposedly your subtle thoughts from the entire day that finally awaken in your subconscious mind when your mind is unconscious (sleeping).

Wow.

I just know those aren't subtle thoughts.

-ahem i am not thinking about censored stuff-

Quote of the Day:"Morrison. -SCREAM-"-Mush says Morrison, which is subsequently followed by a high-pitched shriek by KT. Whenever KT does that, Mush has to pay him 50 cents. He owes KT 7 bucks now.

so much to mention,
but you can't find the words-
before you tell her
goodbye.



Thursday, May 10, 2007
End of CTS! | 7:20 AM



geography




Geography was kind of mixed. The SEQ was very predictable, thus rather manageable. Hope i get at least an L3 /10 and above for it though.




The second part was more tricky. We had to construct justifications on why some areas were built at certain part of the maps, but it was pretty okay. However, there was a slight shortage of time.
This was what happened.

-Scribble scribble-
Yes! I've finished the paper with 5 more minutes to go!
-Stones for 30 seconds-

Let's try to bonus question!
-looks downwards-
No wait! This isn't a bonus question! this is another 5 mark question! OMYGOSH.

-Continues scribbling like hell-

In the end, the conclusion of that question was very crappy. There actually is a visible transformation from neat handwriting at the start to very, hurried and haphazard handwriting in the end.

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Science was WEIRD today man, thanks to certain contributions by the teacher and some students. For example,

Mr Otto Fong:

"Thus, the human body is made out of many biological wires that allow electricity to flow through. However, if there is an electric shock, many of these wires may not be able to function as a huge amount of electricity is flowing through."

Patrick:

"Sir! Use wireless router la!"

This time, the teacher strikes back with a very, erm, controversial joke.

Mr Otto Fong:

This is a sick joke. If you get it, there is something terribly wrong.

Do you know what is a potentially sick term starting with O and ending with M?

(Side note: If you got it straight away, let's just say your brain has missed spring cleaning for over a thousand years already. If you got it after 30 seconds, your mind is 50% pure. If you got it after like 5 minutes due to peer's clues and hints, your mind is 70% pure. If you didn't get it, let's just say you're the definition of the Ministry for Environment's nominee for cleanest place/brain)

So, one day, a man and his wife were doing something that incurred this sick term. However, as the wife was suffering from a mild case of applo-sth which incurs slight seizures.

(Side Note:Linsen said, "Rapid poking of a certain point." EWW.)

So, the man was very concerned and rushed her to the hospital. He said to the doctor, "Doctor! My wife's (sick term) is stuck!"

--

-washes brain-
I had this very, very weird dream yesterday. Involved a small element of naruto and some other personal stuff. somehow they all melded together and created this weird colour dream. It involved united square, gym people, friends, naruto and other stuff.

gosh O_O

Swim Carnival tomorrow! Gonna be Photo I/C for it xD GO MORRISON!

Yay for KT's new blog at www.applecoke.wordpress.com

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Quote of the Day:"If stupidity was a crime, you should be given the death sentence."









and it feels like tonight
can't believe i'm broken enough
never felt like this before
nothing seems to matter
and it feels

like tonight-




End of CTS! | 7:20 AM

geography

Geography was kind of mixed. The SEQ was very predictable, thus rather manageable. Hope i get at least an L3 /10 and above for it though.

The second part was more tricky. We had to construct justifications on why some areas were built at certain part of the maps, but it was pretty okay. However, there was a slight shortage of time.

This was what happened.

-Scribble scribble-
Yes! I've finished the paper with 5 more minutes to go!

-Stones for 30 seconds-

Let's try to bonus question!
-looks downwards-

No wait! This isn't a bonus question! this is another 5 mark question! OMYGOSH.
-Continues scribbling like hell-

In the end, the conclusion of that question was very crappy. There actually is a visible transformation from neat handwriting at the start to very, hurried and haphazard handwriting in the end.

--

Science was WEIRD today man, thanks to certain contributions by the teacher and some students. For example,

Mr Otto Fong:
"Thus, the human body is made out of many biological wires that allow electricity to flow through. However, if there is an electric shock, many of these wires may not be able to function as a huge amount of electricity is flowing through."

Patrick:
"Sir! Use wireless router la!"

This time, the teacher strikes back with a very, erm, controversial joke.

Mr Otto Fong:
This is a sick joke. If you get it, there is something terribly wrong.

Do you know what is a potentially sick term starting with O and ending with M?

(Side note: If you got it straight away, let's just say your brain has missed spring cleaning for over a thousand years already. If you got it after 30 seconds, your mind is 50% pure. If you got it after like 5 minutes due to peer's clues and hints, your mind is 70% pure. If you didn't get it, let's just say you're the definition of the Ministry for Environment's nominee for cleanest place/brain)

So, one day, a man and his wife were doing something that incurred this sick term. However, as the wife was suffering from a mild case of applo-sth which incurs slight seizures.



Wednesday, May 09, 2007
2 Down! | 7:20 AM

Strike out History!

Physics. History

History paper was pretty okay. 1st question had me stumped for like 5 minutes before i started writing crap though. Wrote for like 10 minutes before finding out i had like only 35 minutes left.

Second question took 25 minutes. Usefulness question. This one was rather easy, as the screwed source was quite clearly BIASED.

Third qusetion was left with 20 minutes, which was a structured essay question worth 13 marks. Needless to say, rushed it, and the ending was quite screwed because i decided to end it when the teacher said "alright boys, pens down."

Note: Horny boys like louis would start stripping their pants down.

Think i won't get really high for this CCT this time though.

Tomorrow's geography! Thank goodness that they're only testing Urban Settlement and GM food, which is rather notes-light. If high-tech farming was tested, let's just say we'll be going to school tomorrow to dig our graves with the addition of philo essays.

Our tests timing (Alliteration!) have been rather haphazard these few days, with some going at the 4th period and some at the 2nd last. Usually, the CCTs are meant to be after the last period/

We had health check today at the first period which was coincidentally chinese! Thus, we ponned the whole chinese lesson and half of english lesson.

Oral Comm lesson was totally screwed up and FUNNY man. We were supposed to split up into groups and do a character and his surroundings, personality, appearance etc. We could take any movie character or any fictitious, made up character and do a set of questions regarding his character and aim for life, etc.

In the end, Jun Yang's group ended up doing "Cowboy", who was a china superhero supporting cows. The aim of life was to make cows the most powerful race on the earth and exterminate other heroes. Superpowers was sneezing. Of course, this was a very "indirect" reference to Wendi, which i thought was rather harsh. Good thing they didn't really insult him.

DISCLAIMER: The author did not have much participation in the following group activities.

Our group did: "Cow". Needless to say, fauzan and fitri did make everything seem hilarious but kind of harsh too. Of course, grass-eating was the Cow's aim in life. Very direct inference as well.

Patrick's group was proded as well. They did "borat."
Enough said.

"Ello! Mah name is borat."

which is wrong enough. Surprisingly, he acted it out pretty well. Too bad louis didn't perform.

KT's group was the most controversial one. Their character was Lionel. Lionel Pek (classmate) which involved him in scandalous affairs although these events never really did happen (which included plenty of RA stuff (NOT RAFFLES ACADEMY). Harsh though. Lionel isn't that bad. Heh. KT did a good performance, however.

EUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUAYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

you didn't see anything.

"These Walls" by Teddy Geiger

I can't believe what is in front of me
The water's rising up to my knees
And I can't figure out
How the hell I wound up here
Everything seemed okay when I started out the other day
Then the rain came pouring down
And now I'm drowning in my fears
And as I watch the setting sun
I wonder if I'm the only one

Cause everybody tries to put some love on the line
And everybody feels a broken heart sometimes
And even when I'm scared I have to try to fly
Sometimes I fall
But I've seen it done before
I gotta step outside these walls

I've got no master plan to help me out
Or make me stand up for
All the things that I really want
You had me too afraid to ask
And as I look ahead of me
I cry and pray for sanity

These walls can't be my haven
These walls can't keep me safe here
And now I guess I gotta let them down

Cause everybody tries to put some love on the line
And everybody feels a broken heart sometimes, yeah
Even when I'm scared I have to try to fly
Sometimes I fall
But I've seen it done beforeI got to break out...
I got to break out...
I got to step outside these walls
Love outside these walls

I feel my heart breaking
But its a brand new day
I'm going down
I'm stepping out
I'm stepping outside
These walls

--

Quote of the Day:"Random Nick 58 (MICHAEL SPECIAL EDITION): Bubbly pits of Rainbow acing along the express way."-Kwun Tong.

Dammit! Who could've been so lame as to contribute that random nick? That guy must be some idiot, man.

It's Nessercery.

--

Even when I'm scared I have to try to fly-
but you give me wings
when i'm falling.



Tuesday, May 08, 2007
1 Down, 2 To go | 7:46 AM

Physics was marked down today !

Physics

just finished some weird class CIP thing. Did it in like 5 minutes. The theme was about kindness, and you could do either a poem, drawing, cartoon representation, etc.

Received my lift pass today. Woo! Thanks to Jun Yang for helping me request it.

Physics wasn't that bad as I thought. Of course, the conversion of theories and applying the theory was quite tricky in some questions though. Hope i can get above 15. Or else my GPA = GGXX.com.sg. Say goodbye to complex theories like newton's third law, etc etc...

Had our Malaysian Montage briefing for YH2 Assembly at the new auditorium! It totally rocked [ the auditorium ] too bad no red seats though. Only light blue seats. Or else looks like a real cinema :P

Tomorrow's History! >:)

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Quote of the Day:"Nessercery."-Patrick's spelling of "Necessary" in his history essay. Makes me wonder why he passed his Primary School English.



Monday, May 07, 2007
Injury magnet | 7:46 AM

Over the past few days, I have been unfortunately entered a state of being an injury magnet, asforementioned.

Saturday: Some auntie carrying this metal pole was walking beside me, then she accidentally hit the ceiling and the pole came down on my ankle. Scraped off some skin. Minor case.

Received another minor paper cut and poke while entering the car. =.=

Sunday: Hit the chair while coming down from handstand. OWCH. Good thing no blood.

Today: Ehehe. Was jumping on the tramp when i suddenly over-rotated and tripped. Landed on my toes.

OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWCH.
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWCH.

-readers are advised to shield their ears for the next 5 minutes-

the whole place now is currently superbly swollen. Hey alliteration!Blood is kinda oozing out. wahaha. Still, it hurts like crap and even when im walking. I was practically on one leg the whole time i was walking around the gym and back to home. I actually had to hop up some chairs. Wah extra PT for me.

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Quote of the Day:"Nellieland!"-KT's random Nick 51.

One leg standing,
without your love-



Sunday, May 06, 2007
Chinatown | 4:58 AM

Went there yesterday with the rest of the RIPC to shoot some shots. The task was to ask some people whether we could take a potrait of them. It was initially quite nerve-wracking, but eventually we managed to build up our confidence to ask random strangers whether we could take photos of them.




ask me for the full shot! if you want it, that is :D be warned, some of my photos can be the size of songs, which are like 4 - 5 MB plus.

No wonder my hard drive space's dying.

Yesterday was also travel day. After gym at 11, we went to Junction 8 to drink bubble tea. Was feeling quite guilty about my cough, so I asked the auntie to reduce the ice in my Watermelon Sago.

Stupid cough, everyone's starting to suan me with their oh-so-wonderful chocolates and ice cream these days. RAWR.

Anyway, we then walked all the way back to RI to obtain the can for the CIP Flag Day thing. Because i didn't sign up, so I didn't have to take one. Instead, i followed the gym people around Bishan which included some block of flats, J8, etc and we walked until our foot became pain. Ren Hao was dam pro at asking people to donate though. Guess thick skin helps sometimes ^^. by the time he walked out of RI, 4 people had already donated to him.

After that, we split up and got lost along the way :D Went to J8 with ren hao to eat subway. yay!

after that took MRT all the way from Bishan to Dhoby Ghaut. Switched lines and went to Chinatown.

Coincidentally, met jeremy and daniel when i walked out of the ticketing machine. phew.

At chinatown, we were assigned the task of taking 2 photos in 1 hour. We plainly wasted like the first phew 10 minutes pacing around endlessly. But, practice makes perfect, so we were more confident in asking people to pose in the end.

From Chinatown to Dhoby Ghaut, then to Orchard Road. Walked about 10 minutes from the MRT station all the way to the GoodWood hotel to cut hair. Don't really like it though.

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yay for nice people posing for chinatown photos!

Quote of the Day:"
i realized if you type DYING!DYING
alot of times
it looks like it should be pronouced as deeing
like the way zhao chun yang would say nail
ding zi"

-Kwun Tong

did you notice,

did you take the time to listen,

to my breath,

or to my words-





Friday, May 04, 2007
2.4! | 7:28 AM

metres!

Mark this date everyone!

MICHAEL GOT C FOR 2.4! FOR ONCE!

with a noob timing of 12.52. Which was a huge improvement over my sec 1 score, which was a NOOB 14* ++ minutes. No GST included.

This = Gold for me! yay. Too bad my Sit and Reach got a C too. sheesh.

Just now, when i was walking around United Square, i walked past a bar and i saw these two women talking. More of like one-sided swearing anyway. The incident goes like this:

I see them. At first, i hear a suspicious noise.
"Phf-aah-ck!"
I was quite surprised. I dismissed it.

One of the ladies started saying,
"You know ah, you ****ed with me. Then, you leave me here and **** me. You started ****ing with me."

My jaw almost hit the ground. Use your imagination to fill in those pretty little stars with appropiate words that are running through your mind now.

Let's just hope that they weren't serious about the literal meanings.

Next week I have,

Geography CCT-Tuesday
Science CCT-Wednesday
History CCT-Thursday

All of this = Great Fun!

And the teachers aren't helping with the massive pile of homework, too.

Turns out today wasn't Swimming Carnival. Heats instead, so brought the camera for nothing. However, i did manage to test out the 400D and some shots too.







Look here closely people, This is an example of the Gabrillius Noobikakus. An evolution from the Yaneus Chenzyre. This is a rare situation of which this species decided to say the "F" Word. If you look closely, you can see his lips contorting into what it seems like an "F" which subsequently resulted in a vulgarity being said to the unlucky photographer. This species is also half-naked, which resulted in many sudden and temporary blindess to all those around. Nah.


Kenneth in the background.




This is a picture of Clement, the PRODED swimmer in our class doing the Butterfly stroke. This is called the right example of how to swim it. He actually was the fastest among the rest, i think.

Dammit, Throat still hurts. And it didn't help when an Indian Worker walked past me with a cigarette spouting second-hand smoke into my face.


Quote of the Day:"If the world was without decimals, it would be pointless."-2P classroom, Seminar Room 1.

it hurts the most,

when i'm missing you-




Thursday, May 03, 2007
Skin Deep; | 7:31 AM

Taking Op for Swimming Carnival Tomorrow!

2.4 TOMORROW. GGXX siah. I have the ultimate passport to ponning it though. The MEDICAL CERTIFICATE!

Somehow, a clinic sells medical certificates for 2 dollars each, according to Milton.

Science today was scary man. Gabriel screwed another leg of our froglet. I think our froglets are really unlucky. Tails + Legs broken off. Owch. Good thing we mended it with scotch tape and handed it to Mr Otto Fong before the whole thing fell apart.

I Quote: "This thing looks quite sturdy!"-OF

ahem. This led to me laughing away.

Attained 11/12 for the mobile for the first part. I think the marking was a bit lenient though. Got quite high for a un-impressive looking piece of contraption. I think it was because we gave it first, so impression marks were higher. Good thing all the scotch-tape held.

As expected, Adib and Fauzan's brilliant mobile made of balsa wood, fish hooks ,etc got 12/12 which absolutely pwninated the others. Too bad Jonathan's group got 10. Theirs weren't bad, if not abit messy.

Downloaded naruto through bittorent today! Movie 3 rocked man.

Finally handed in the edusave form Ms Koh was chasing and hunting me down for. hehs.

LIFEHOUSE LYRICS

"You And Me"

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me
and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off
you and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

--

Ruijie! don't feel too bad okay? It's only one year. And Gym doesn't control your life. YOU do!

I wonder why some thick-skinned people get what they want. Because they dare to go for it?

Quote of the Day:"Stupidity is not a crime, so you're free to go."
"If you were to speak your mine, you would be speechless."-Kelly
"I'm not sleeping. I'm talking to the table."-Jia Teck

because i can't
say what i;
just want to.



Wednesday, May 02, 2007
Metamorphosed; | 7:39 AM

Pronounced as "meh-tuh-mor-foh-sed".

sheesh.

Today, the frog mobile that I had to bring to school broke because somebody knocked me and the whole thing toppled. Wtheck! Bringing it in the car resulted it in many crams in arms of Michael, the unfortunate victim in this case.

Felt really crabby towards some people today.

Watched Naruto Shipuuden Anime and Bleach and The Incredibles on Wei Xuan's new Ipod Video [Black]. Killed his battery life.

The scenario goes like this:

Weixuan loses his iPod Nano.
Goes and buy a new iPod video.

Ruijie definitely hates him.

Definition of Rich People:
A certain group of people who have too much money to burn and use as toilet paper, thus they just buy whatever there is that is commercialized especially objects of much desire such as iPods, HDTVs that are 100-inch, PS3s, Xbox 360s, etc. Thus, their wallets are often mistaken as private banks which give free loans and no interest.

End Michael's Dictionary for Noobies.

Today was also philo discussion. We died while trying to identify what was the virtue ethics of Aristotle and Confucius. Too bad we didn't have any philo pros such as LinSen to identify all the facts =/

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Quote of the Day:"Where do you dine on a date?"-Screen on Sex Education, 3T classroom.

More of like First Date tips for Dummies.



Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Take it All Away; | 7:47 AM

SPIDERMAN 3 IS OUT! woot.

haven't got the time and chance to watch it though.

Finished the mobile! But i think it looks weird. Hope everything holds together though, or Mr Otto Fong will have our heads tomorrow.

Which reminds me, I haven't painted the eyes yet. Whoops.

Went to Changi Point which is about 30 minutes drive away for dinner. Walked around the entire place looking for nice photos to take, but since the sky was dark and the clouds were being moody, no chance to take any nice photos =/

Ate at this weird Crab Bee Hoon coffeeshop.

3 Tests next week! Geography History and Science. Die siah. don't know a thing about physics.

Wasted lots of time today.

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Quote of the Day:"What did the male switch say to the female switch? You really turn me on!"

about time i said,
what i really want to
but will it work out?
wait. my favourite pasttime for now.

confidence